[ It's just how he is. Shi Qingxuan really wonders how far he meant it when he said he'd want him no matter what state he was in. How can he compare to that? Loving is easy. The logistics of a physical relationship are not. ]

Isn't that to say you don't know what you would do either? It's the same thing. This needs more thought than a simple yes or no.

[ And he's tempted to just leave it at that as that's all that needs to be said.

But, he trusts Shino more than most people, so he continues anyway. In a soft voice: ]

How would you feel if we never did it again?